The Frigid Jones's Diary

Daily horoscope readings from Cosmo: Subscription terminated.

Lost track on: alcohol units intake, cigarette consumption, quadruple-dose on daily caffeine intake (mostly prepared by Rainbow), calories based on unwanted body fats, overdosing on sleeping pills, supplements and hormonals, zero love life equals zero sex life.

It's the end of the love month. And almost the end of my queerty-two years. 6 days from now and I'm triple-depressed 33 fag. Heaven's becoming a hopeless case. As well as Sunlight. And the rest of the men in my life. No longer have the guts to date. I'm currently hopeless on every aspect of my life. Gotta die!

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Weekly reading from Horoscope.com: "Consider revitalizing your image when the New Moon takes place in Pisces on Tuesday. It's time to dazzle others with your pizzazz! An associate might try to influence you on Wednesday. Remember that you have the right to make up your own mind. You'll uncover a unique way to invest money on Friday. Don't be afraid to think outside the box concerning your finances. A relative will help you on Sunday. This person wants you to succeed in life!"

I have been very busy for the past few weeks and I never had the time to jot down my so-called dragged life. Been very busy. Working. Drinking. Sleeping. Obsessing my boss, Sunlight. Fantasizing about making up with Heaven. Watching Korean drama "My Name is Kim Sam Soon" and "Dalja's Spring" over and over again. Procastinating.

I have been avoiding calls from my family, my friends. I have been avoiding lots of people from the office. From the neighborhood. Hibernating.

I always feel tired. From everything. From my everyday life. From everyone. About life. I'm practically tired. Sick. And tired. Again.

Waiting for another breakdown.

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Currently playing: "Flashback" by Tina Arena

Alcohol units, 0 (been awesome for the past 3 days). Caffeine, 31 cups (substitute for alcohol). Cigarettes, 63 (in moderation for 3 days). Sunlight sightings (2 thumbs up for avoiding him the past 3 days, minus 1 finger for up the 2 empty mineral water bottles earlier).

Been very busy for the past 3 days.

Today's horoscope from Horoscope.com: “The position of the planets today means you have a chance to make amends with someone you were once romantically close to, and yet felt you had wronged in some way. The nature of the hurt may not even have been that bad, but for some reason you feel guilty. Use this time to start a new chapter in your relationship, and learn to laugh freely with each other again.”

Feeling sick. Haven't taken supplements for almost two weeks aside from alcohol. Now I'm rotting.

12:30 PM. Everybody's already drinking downstairs. Except me. Up here in the office. Working. Detoxing? Mind's craving for alcohol but my body says no. No. No alcohol today, please? Back to work (hoping to catch up with the guys downstairs. Wait for me, please?).

Today's horoscope from Horoscope.com: "Your luck has just turned with regard to issues of love and romance, and wow! Has it turned for the better, Pisces! You should be sitting on cloud nine today when it comes to matters of the heart. If, for some reason, you aren’t, perhaps you should consider who is sitting next to you on that cloud. Maybe it’s time for a change. This is your day to be happy."

As always. My intuition never failed me. I finally got a conclusion about Sunlight's recent infidelities, unfaithfulness and philandering. I was always right about how I felt recently. And what I saw. And what I've heard. Sunlight and Aladdin's Whore are back on each other's arms again. How delightful.

But this just in. Snow Wife found out about the rekindling of their affair. Via Facebook. So my guts was right when I thought that something's going on with his marriage when he and she deactivated their Facebook accounts. And when he did not show up during the Fairy Party. And when I saw him outside the Han's Theater. I was right. As always. Going back to the news, so this happened after Christmas, before New year. Snow Wife bombarded Aladdin's Whore through SMS calling her names. Stopping her to ruin their marriage again. Finally. How frightful.

7:00 AM. Huge called. Can't drink yet. Still got work.

8:00 AM. Huge called. Can't drink yet. Still finishing work.

9:00 AM. Huge called. Can't drink yet. Stashed the phone on my purse.

11:00 AM. Checked phone. 17 missed calls from Huge with 6 messages. Can't drink yet. Still stucked in the office. Replied with a lie: "Sorry, Huge. I just got off from an emergency meeting. Will see you after lunch."

12 noon. Had lunch with Goldilocks who asked Ted the Bear to go home and rest earlier. Goldilocks seemed unavailable to accompany me to meet Huge and The Sunlight Replica. Used some emotional blackmail, "Oh, okay. I forgot you're no longer single."

Threatened with the thought that she will be singled out from PFF, "it's not that I'm in a relationship, Jones. It's the laundry. Okay, fine. I'll go with you."

So now I sounded desperate coz I'm single? Phew!

2:00 PM. The Secret Society were finally completed after the last time that we saw each other: Huge, The Sunlight Replica, Goldilocks and me.

Drunk by 6:00 PM.

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